"You were a really good psychiatrist; I looked up to you," she said between margarita sips. "I never would have guessed." I guzzled half the lager in my right hand, then said, "Appreciate you saying that, really, but I suppose that says something in itself, right?" We chuckled, took a brief stroll down our shared … Continue reading Newsletter #96: Honesty is the How
Tag: anxiety
The Cost of Admission
Watching sunlight spread slowly over my yard’s newly green grass, I accompanied the morning from my porch. It’s a simple, majestic experience, usually. Sometimes I’m lost in thought, worried about this or that, and I miss it; but today, I was there. I closed my eyes and sensed the sun’s warmth on my face, identifying … Continue reading The Cost of Admission
A Lesson in Astrocartography
The rise, demise, and return of my love for the local health food store, as told through one flyer for astrocartography services.
The Planet Fitness Portal Opens
Ever experienced inverse déjà vu? I did this week. For me, it’s been about as rare as seeing a bald eagle. Inverse déjà vu, I believe, is a marker on the map of our life, letting us know we’re doing what we’re supposed to be doing out here in the uncertainty. Proof that we're answering … Continue reading The Planet Fitness Portal Opens
Newsletter #40: Where We Must Never Compromise
I love The Razor's Edge by W. Somerset Maugham, especially the book's introduction. The passage opens with a quote: The sharp edge of a razor is difficult to pass over; thus the wise say the path to Salvation is hard. - from the Katha Upanishad Maugham, a prominent novelist of the 1900s (and interestingly, a … Continue reading Newsletter #40: Where We Must Never Compromise
Newsletter #32: Can I Have the Address For Motivation, Please?
While painting furniture this week, I listened to Sam Presti's yearly meeting with the media. Presti is the Oklahoma City Thunder's general manager. Ever since '08—the Thunder's arrival from Seattle—he's served in that role, and I've always appreciated these sessions, listening every year. Not for an idea of the team's direction, no, but for myself. It's free … Continue reading Newsletter #32: Can I Have the Address For Motivation, Please?
Get the Fork Out of the Garbage Disposal
Ryan, if you go become a doctor, you can keep your soul. It’ll work out, always does.
Newsletter #27: The Great Hedge War of Tuesday Night
7:30PM. Two nights ago. I hold in my hands an electric hedge trimmer. Before me, guarding the gate to a relaxing evening with my wife, are our two hedges. Two SEC defensive tackle hedges; they're overgrown, thick, and neglected. Staunch with a vengeance. With a bow, I pull the electric trigger and wage war. 8:00PM. … Continue reading Newsletter #27: The Great Hedge War of Tuesday Night
What I Must Never Forget (And Why It’s Tattooed On My Forearm)
his commentary made me glance in search of my own tattoo, coming into view from under by cuffed button down as I reached out with my left hand to accept my margarita. There it was; two words that bookended a chapter and serve as my talisman for the next.
One Year to the Day, I Reflect on the Morning My Life Changed
One year ago, I began. It wasn’t this, but it was something, anything. Tired of the charade and sick of waiting, life or death hinged on my actions on 3/20/22.
