“Fighty, we’re all on the long road back to who we were in high school.” I’ve been sixteen, a football player that blasted rap music from his truck with twenty-inch rims. I’ve been twenty-four, a health teacher and vegan evangelist that ran 5Ks every weekend. I’ve been twenty-seven, a medical student that survived on his … Continue reading Before I Learned How Much I Needed to Change
Yesterday as the sun set, I followed GPS directions into a neighborhood tucked between creases of the Blue Ridge Mountains. I instantly adored the place. At the neighborhood’s entrance, there was an empty pond with wooden docks for fishing and barely blooming willows on the banks. Every home was on a half-acre. Every driveway was … Continue reading Sensing, Before Seeing, the Destination
I can’t remember the podcast or the person that said it, but I heard this week that people in the United States are living at the lowest levels of risk since our country’s inception. Why risk it for the biscuit when you have all the biscuits you need?
As I walked their trails in my old shoes, it occurred to me that I had no idea, then, how meaningful those years were. I had no sense that a lesson was coming. I was operating under no illusions of wisdom and growth. I was only surviving, taking the next step.
I simply cannot afford to be cruel to myself any longer, a holdover from my survival in medicine, and hope to create a life I love.
Toward the end our celebratory dinner, my grandpa made eye contact with me and from across the table, mouthed, “I’m so proud of you.” I mouthed back, “Thank you Gramps.” But I was not proud of me. For nine years, that pride would go unrequited.
The rise, demise, and return of my love for the local health food store, as told through one flyer for astrocartography services.
Snoozing is harmless. Everyone snoozes, I thought to myself, when I chose to snooze today. After all, it's only nine minutes. But nine minutes matters. Ask my throbbing ankle.
Ever experienced inverse déjà vu? I did this week. For me, it’s been about as rare as seeing a bald eagle. Inverse déjà vu, I believe, is a marker on the map of our life, letting us know we’re doing what we’re supposed to be doing out here in the uncertainty. Proof that we're answering … Continue reading The Planet Fitness Portal Opens
Am I happy? Since my eyes opened four hours ago, I’ve dreaded writing this essay. Now that I’m drafting this essay, the dread grows. It’s not coming together as expected. This feeling sucks. My head hurts. I want to go back to bed. No, I am not happy.
